I say attempting, because it is something that I haven't achieved. It's something that I struggle to do, especially when something "bad/difficult" happens. For instances, when someone at work would say something that doesn't recognize my hard work. Or, when I shower my love and attention to my loved ones, but they do not seem to care and love as much I do. These moments are toughest to remain joyful and look through God's eyes.
- Because I am so used to seeing things through "my own eyes", and living with "my own skin", everything would be processed through "me" first. "I" would get hurt from these incidents and "my" initial emotion would be anger, disappointment, and sadness. "I" would feel as if "I" was being devalued that "my" worth as a human being was nothing.
- Then, I would put a line between "me" and "them" and process "them" separately. "They" don't know what "they" are talking about. "They" care only about "themselves." "They" do not love "me" as much as "I" do.
- After all these thoughts and emotions get processed, then I finally remember to ask God, "how do you view this, God?" "what good can come from these situations?"
- Then, God puts His lens in front of my eyes. My eyes can now see their circumstances. 'They didn't mean to say that to make me feel bad.' 'They didn't do that, because they didn't love me, it's because they express their love differently.'
- Finally I can reconcile with them and my thoughts. I can remain joyful and thankful.
The reason why I had put them in separate bullet points, is because they are different stages of my thought process. I am pointing out and recognizing that it takes time for me to go from one stage to another. It would be perfect and ideal, if I could go straight to the last two stages. However, I have a feeling that even if I worked on this all my life, it would be nearly impossible to go straight to last two stages. It doesn't mean it's hopeless! I want you to know that I have hopes that as I practice more and more to direct my thoughts and eyes to God, the gaps between the stages would shorten and I would be content.
Thank you for reading this imperfect work of mine. I leave you now with the perfect word of God.
"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10